YOIU GUYS!!! DONT FORGET ABOUT ME!!!!!!!!!!! I GOT MY INTERNET UP AND RUNNING!!!! SO TALK TO ME DUDES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! woah totally surfer! but my new sn is PurpleNipple15 so talk to me on there! I MISS U ALL!!!!
U GUYS!!!!!!!! GOOD NEWS AND BAD NEWS!!! good news--- i dont have to live with my dad n e more... cept when a certain bad thing happens, then dad wants full custody and then i have to tranfer over to forest lake senior high... UGH NO WAY ID RATHER SLIT MY THROAT!!!! ewwww yucky thought!!! ok n e ways and the bad news... moms release date from the hospital keeps getting postponed and she just moved to a different floor so nobody knows when shes coming back...
ANYBODY if u guys talk to kari... tell her i really want her to call me. even if she doesnt want to. she needs to know something.... n nobody... i mean NOBODY!!! i fu know whats going on... dont talk about it to anyone who doesnt already know... id like to tell ppl whats going on.... ima go now tho. so ill talk to yall later! hahah i said yall... uncle tims accent is growin on me... AHHHH MAKE IT STOP! ok buh byes!
I'm moving in with my dad you guys! I packed clothes and a bunch of random things. My main scare that I'm really freaking about is Matt. I know that Forest Lake isn't that far away and what not. But still. I won't see him as much as I usually do. And school's starting soon. I'm just scared that if I move and we don't see each other as much, that it would be too weird and things would be over between us. I was freaking out about that. And I'm scared to call him, but I'm going to before I leave. I'm so scared. I'm going to miss all of my friends. And right now, Matt, Christina, and Kenzie are all I have left. They're all I ever needed and I don't want to lose any of them. I know for a fact nothings changing between Kenzie and I because we didn't see each other that much anyways. But Matt and Christina.... DON'T FORGET ABOUT ME!!! Matt... I love you soooooooooooooooo much you have no idea. I know I told you that before, but you can't even begin to imagine. So I hope we're still cool. I'm sure. But I don't want it to be weird. COME OVER TO DAD'S SOON!!! Christina.... I WUBES WOO SUNSHINE!!!! You're gonna visit me!!! And I'm going to get my permit soon enough and after that it's license and I'll be visiting you! BOTH OF YOU GO TO SEGUE ON SATURDAY!!!!
KRazY Things I packed:
*Notes people wrote me
*a note that matt made me and put in my locker when i was home sick once... :-(
*flowers matt picked and the rose that he wore to the wedding
*straws and swizzle sticks
*the picture i drew of matt and the one he drew of me (a squirrel) when he stayed over a long time ago
*jones soda bottle caps
*kissy lips sound thinger that says "MWAH! I love you"
*letter rob wrote me
*cigarette muffin newspaper clipping thing
*duct tape ring/pipe cleaner ring
*home videos i made with friends
stupid stuff like that. I'm less worried about clothes. I'm more worried about little things. I have a whole BAG full of stuff like that. I can't leave that here. I know I'm coming back some other time to get more. But still this first week is gonna be hard!!! So I want things like those to cheer me up.
I hope that I can go with Matt and his family on their trip. But I bet with the way his parents are, they're going to want me to stay here with my mom. Well to be honest, I haven't seen my mom yet. I'd break down if I saw her like that. And I'm not even supposed to know that it's what we thought it was. So pretending not to know is really hard. Plus we're giving up the dogs. If you want a rottweiler, a cocker spaniel, or a stupid brown dog, Let me know. They need homes.
But yeah, The trip with Matt. That would be soooo cool. It's sort of the end of Summer and I'm moving in with my Dad and I won't go to Osseo anymore until I get my license... (holy shit) But yeah. It would be awesome to go with him. I want to spend lots of time with him before school starts. And same goes for Christina. I might be spending some time with Kenzie next week. But I gotta find out more about the trip with Matt. AHHHHH THIS IS SO HARD! I've been crying for like.... 3 hours. It sucks.
Whatever. People, call me... especially Matt and Christina.... new number's 651-464-5997. Dad said we'd be setting up a line in each of me n josh's rooms so we'd get our own line, and I'll be getting a cell phone and what not. But just until then... CALL THAT NUMBER I NEED YOU GUYS MORE THAN EVER RIGHT NOW!!!!!! PLEASE!!!! I'll talk to you all later! I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH! DON'T FORGET ABOUT ME! ANY OF YOU! goodbye!
OMFG! OK... I NEED A PLACE TO STAY LIKE MAD!!!! SERIOUSLY! TODAY I WOKE UP BECAUSE TINA WOKE ME UP CUZ OUR TOILET WAS FLOODING.... THATS BECAUSE OF SOMETHING WRONG WITH THE TANK.... I DUNNO BUT IT WAS ALL OVER THE FLOOR AND LEAKING REALLY REALLY FAST! SO I CALLED MY GMA AND SHE WASNT HOME N THEN SO I CALLED MY DAD AND HE TOLD ME HOW TO SHUT OFF THE TOILET AND THEN SAID FOR US TO GET SOME THINGS TOGETHER FOR US TO GO OVER THERE WITH HIM... BUT I CANT DO THAT!!!!!!!! I NEED TO GET OUTTA THE HOUSE BEFORE HE GETS OFF WORK.... WHICH IS IN LIKE I DUNNO HOW MANY HOURS.... (ABOUT 2:30PM) SO IF ANY OF YOU CAN HELP ME OUT WITH A PLACE TO STAY, ID BE SOOOOOOO GREATFUL. I CAN EVEN LEAVE A LITTLE LATER. BUT I CANT LEAVE MAPLE GROVE... AHHHH I CANT DO IT... SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME OUT HERE!!!!!!!! I'LL DO ANYTHING!!!!!!!! MAYBE NOT EVEN OVERNIGHT, JUST FOR TODAY.... THATD HELP OUT SOOOOO MUCH!!!!! I HAVE SO MUCH TO TAKE CARE OF HERE IN MAPLE GROVE THAT I CANT JUST LEAVE IT... HELP ME!!!!!! IF U NEED MY NUMBER HERE: (763)-425-8110 AHHHHHHHHH PLEASE!!!!
okie dokie so i called matt back in the morning (not really but close) to get things straightened out and what not cuz i still felt bad and then he said i should come over because his sisters and chris and eric are going to be over and theyre all eating dinner at matts so i should go and then he called me back after he mowed the lawn, but i was online so he pops on for a sec n says if i went we'd have to see "the village" again. well so i went and his family was already IN the theater... n matt gave me my old ticket stub from the last time we saw it a couple days ago... n it was at AMC so we walked in... walked past the ticket boothy thing... walked to the side past the dude who rips the tickets and walked into the theater... that place... i tell u everyones stupid... even Gerry. hahaha yeah ok. well yeah so we sit there and watch it again. U CATCH A LOT MORE THINGS THAN THE FIRST TIME! n when we left everyone kinda missed something that we caught... but theyre like 'i dont have to pay twice to understand things because i regret paying the first time... well then we went to matts house and his mommy made good good food! lol we all sat outside and ate and then just sat around. i was more or less listening than talking cuz its more interesting... but yeah. (ok the same dude just drove past my house but in a differnt car... wtf? w/e) ok. well they were talking about pot and Denny's like "i have never done weed!" and heather pointed at him and said liar. and then later this pop can started moving back n forth cuz of the fan and Dennys like "whys that can moving?" and i was gonna say "you've never done weed huh?" but Eric kinda said that for me lol hes like "Did you just take a hit inside?" lol it was really funny. and just a long conversation about pot smokin. lol and we're talkin bout kyle's family meeting and everyones parents are invited... and dennys like im not goin and i think linda was too and then matts like "its a BBQ" and lindas face popped up and im like "oh NOW you guys will go" lol and then linda later told me to try n get some money together and try n go with them on their trip whenever that is... matts gonna call me today after work and help me figure stuff out cuz i wanna go. i just gotta go to my daddys lol. ;-) no not the whole "daddys plastic" kinda thing lol or the "run to daddy" cuz i never do that. but my cash cards at my dads house or w/e and i got lots of crap over there n then i can wash all my clothes over there too. lol cuz his washing machines awesome and his dryer. see we have to dry everything hang dry them in our basement and then the smell of laundry water sticks to them. it sucks! so once i figure that out then i will know what im doin. i hope i can go, thatd be fun. matts family kicks MAJOR end... but yep! okie dokie and then after talking me n matt went inside and sat in his room. we watched saving silverman. thats a good movie... lol he didnt like it that much n hes KRazY for that. but yea, then we watched TV (scare tactics cuz thats what his mom wanted to watch in the other room--- dont ask) yeah well then we headed over here at 11 (i think the time he hadda be home) and he hadda come in to get his retainer. it was in my room. but yep then he just layed down n almost crashed there for a bit. but he kepy checkin the time all "i dont wanna go yet" so yep we're just laying there... i almost felled asleep too. :-\ hmmph but then i rolled him over onto his back and sat on top of him tickling his sides to wake him up. that did no good... lol ended up just laying there again and then he sat up and i was taller than him. his nose was to my shoulders. it was weird. lol and then he tookeded off. haha kinda stood outside for a bit lol but its nice out there. matt thought it was nice in my room. hes syko lol my rooms hot. i got my window open and the fan blowing and its hot as hell. lol w/e its cool. ima go tho! ttyl! TAH TAH buh byes
ok so yeah i drank ALL of kyles bacardi/coke thing and hes liek "I NEED A NEW DRINK! TINA STOLE MINE AND WONT GIVE IT BACK!" lol HEY n e ways yeah then ppl got goofy and matt asked if i wanted cookies or soemthing like that i dunno and i hadda go to the bathroom but when i got out we were all gonna walk to amoco and so me him christina and kari all walked down there... were honestly being RETARDED AS HELL! i thought i could walk fine. but i could! lol seriously but i lost my flip flop and then i forgot where we were going and we got like across the street from amoco and we decided not to go n e more, so we turned around and then kyle picked up christina and kari. i didnt hear a door shut but i turned around and christinas alkready sittin in there. later she told me she just jumped through it lol. so me n matt walked back, hahaha THAT WAS FUN. i dotn remember why, but it was. lol :-\ terrible! i was really bad. and we all later went to the park adn ned pulled my hair so i said fuck off.... n kari started telling people that i was a bitch when im drunk. where the hell did that come from n then someone else commented... and so i said "fuck you" again and karis liek "see?" UGH w/e... ok... and yeah then OH well yeah on the way back... whitney picked us up and gave us a ride back to TJs... thank god i woulda faled over. i was so exhausted. that was a long walk. but w/e yeah then yeah. i dunno wut else happened. but later i started cryin because i felt terrible for matt to have to see me like that and then it hurt when ppl were like talking about me all "woah shes wasted." and people just talking about me... it sucked and then everyone worrying about rides home and all the shit that went on, i never wanna do that again, so im done. i honestly dont really remember what all happened, so this isnt the best thinger or w/e get used to it! lol i dunno but then i also got really really freaked out cuz matt said he was gonna drive home and drive us home but it ended up that whitney drove kari home... and christina drove me n matt to my house and then (hhaha im talking to kenzie on the phone now and she told me she saw a picture of my ex boyfriend and she was like "OMG i have a CRUSH on him" hahahha n e ways) yeah then matt was gonna drive home... and i was really really worried so i told him to call me when he got home n chrisitna was gonna stay over. matt was invited too but his mommy never talked to MY mommy so yeah. i dunno it sucked. we go inside and i tripped n i blamed it on jake... :-\ then i tripped again over myself in the living room n mom asked where matt was. AHHH yeah well matt called n i apologized n he thought it was all his fault then we hung up. someoen hung up i dunno. he said it was me i thought it was him. w/e no goodbyes it sucked so bad. but then me n christina talked about a lot of shit and it was very emotional... yeah i dont wanna do that shit n e more... so im not gonna... yeah well ima go now cuz i dont wanna type n e more... lol but yeah i gots another entry after this one that ima do now, so TAH TAH~
yep yep! yeah. i dont really know what to say but it ROCKED. ok so christina came over at about - well i dunno! lolbut she came over. and then matt called when i was brushing my teeth so christina talked to him n he was on his way. then he came n got us n my mom wanted juice, so we stopped at deans and got some n went back, dropped it off and then took off from there. matt started heading towards jefferson and i asked why hes going that way and hes like "169" and i just look at him n hes like "OH!!! we gotta pick up kari dont we?" well yeah so then we picked her up and went over to robs house. hung out there for a bit. i kept loosing my pop but w/e yeah then rob was NOWHERE TO BE FOUND, so his dads like "i dunno what the hell is wrong with rob, im gonna go get him and bring his ass back here" so he did and yeah there was some other dude n i asked what his name was. Grant I believe. w/e so then we all load up the van with the shit and me, christina and kari rode with Matt... and then rob, tyler, brian, paul, and that grant dude rode with like... some other dude. i forgot his name. lets call him david? lol sounds like thats right. w/e and yeah matt didnt have much gas but we just drove around because the other dudes a stupid fuck. but as we were pulling out of robs, TJ pulled up with kyle, adam and whitney... and so we're all just following the stupid shit. and then matt tells the 3 f us to grab shit to throw out the window so we found pencils or some shit and adams throwing skittles (which i believe matt said cracked his windsheild... we found a crack in it the other day) but w/e and yep then we go BACK to robs to get robs dad. wtf was that for? pointless... lol but yeah then we all headed out to the garage. everyone that was in "david's" car (except that grant dude) went in johns car. and yeah so that worked out. we got there and each person in the band got one person as a guest to let in for free. and i was with matt, tj was with brian, adam was tyler, kyle was with rob, and whitney was with paul... or something like that so christina and kari coudlnt get wristbands.. and the fucking idiots wouldnt let them pay either.... FUCKERS so whitney told the people that those 2 were helping unload the van n shit so they got back there. but the guys later found out theyre playing on this little dinky stage... instead of the bigger one, but later a band cancelled so they got the big stage! YAY! well then people started showing up, doors opened. show started. i started recording and some dumbass dude told me to turn off my camera cuz i need a permit and i asked how to get one and theyre like 'u pay 5 bucks back there adn then when we get a copy of the tape, then u get ur money back" well wtf do they need a copy of the tape for? advertisting?? if it was then the band should get paid! cuz they never said shit bout it... lol i dunno but after the show, i asked some girl with plastic wrap stuff if i could bum some of it and the dude told me to watch his fashion show later cuz he was wrapped in it. yeah then we all went over to TJ's house..... ummm and i get in there and kyles like "tina, try this" and i ask what it was and hes like bacardi and coke... perfect mix... so i sipped it and it was pretty good... and then i just drank it and i wouldnt share. kari asked for some. i dunno if she ever got some but christina took it from me n had a sip. i didnt think n e thing had happened to me but yeah... ill put all this shit in the next entry. lol this ones too long! TAH TAH!
Thank you Matt for everything that you did for me last night. I really appreciate it! I love you.
ok so last night when i was talking to matt he said we should do something today. so i told him to call me and then this morning i had just finished doing dishes when he called and then i was sposta think of soemthing to do lol but hes like "im just gonna come over n we'll figure something out" so he came over... he was gonna climb thru my window but that didnt happen... HMMPH oh ok! and then he grabs the fishin pole and starts hooking my matress, my pillow, the blanket covering my window... hes a little slow lol. he uses "real fishing poles" lol w/e thats cool haha and yeah then we went driving around n we went to disc-go-round... he found the breakfast club movie... i saw it too but i said nothing. lol i knew he was gonna do wut he did lol he offered to buy it and wouldnt let me leave until i did, well i didnt! heheh i didnt have n e money and bah! i dunno im just like that. i can get it some other time. or w/e yeah so then we went to check out what movies were playing at his theater... and we drove to the far end of the parking lot and there were people having sex in their car and we turn around n matts like "should we go back n just park next to them n WATCH?" lol what a goof...n yup we go back to his house n watch aqua teen hunger force tapes he recorded and i saw a commercial for "the village" and i said i wanted to see that so matt said we should go see it. so we did. and after the movie we went to robs. see brian said him n paul dont know why i go n theyre all"wuts up with that?" and so yeah... i kinda ummm... didnt wanna piss them off n matts like "do u wanna go?" well yeah i do, but i dont want the guys to get irritated... brian told me he doesnt care cuz i asked him before but i guess paul does. but maybe hes just kidding i duno but yeah we went ot robs. and they were awesome! i love watching practices because everyone gets better n better (when they practice lol) ut yeah it was fun then we all went back over to uhh... pauls house i guess cuz ummm robs friends showed up and they were just getting high so w/e yeah and then i sat on matts lap n we played tic-tac-toe... i kicked his ass :-\ ?? lol actually i sucked ass lol i didnt win once! hehe but theres still a couple marbles on the floor lol... yeah w/e but then matt like licked behind my ear and said he wanted to bite someones ear off like the boxer so i told him he could n he bitted my ear and it kinda hurt but not really. he didnt bite it off tho so thats prolly y. lol yeah well... then he kepy slobberin on me... like my neck n my cheak and my ear lol. it was weird haha and then he said he had to be home at 11 and it was like 10:50 and so i had him leave cuz i dont want his mommy to get mad at me OH YEAH! i helped bring in groceries! im such a great little helper. ok n e ways yeah so then we drive over to my house n matts like "sleepy time" and its 11 when hes sposta be home... so hes sitting up right and i recline back lol hes all "howd u do that?" then he reclines back n just kinda like layed there talkin n cuddled up together. n then he licks my ear again and then i wipe it on his shirt and then he goes KRazY!!!! licking like my ears, my nose, my cheaks, my forehead, my lips, my neck, my chin, my eyes... lol everywhere on my face and stuff and he did that for like 10 minutes! hahah and i kept wiping it off on him and then i grabbed his hoodie from the back and wiped it on that lol. LOTS of slobber hahah it was fun tho. lol many would think thats gross! but its funny as hell! hahaha wow okie well then i had already told him a bunch of times that he should prolly go so his mommy dont get mad at him and hes like i dun wanna go and then his mom called (at like 11-before all the slobberin) yeah n then hes like "i got lots of time now" well we got to my house at like 11 - THERE WAS A BUNNY!!!!- and he didnt leave until like 11:45 :-\ errrg. lol ITS ALL MY FAULT! i hope the guys can stay over tomorrow. thatd be fun! cept rob n paul. me n matt figured they wouldnt n then the look on brians face made it seem like he didnt want to n to be honest... if brian doesnt then i dont really want tyler to cuz tyler talks when brians around (if at all) lol and yeah then i hope matt can. but christina said she can take off work in the morning if she wants to. so thatd be cool! but yeah moms idea. dont ask me hahah. i duno where we'd all sleep tho. lol. w/e k well ima go! ima talk to ya'll later! lol buh byes!
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